When you’re in your sh*t, do you forget to ask life for help?
Do you try to “fix” it, rather than transforming it?
Me too!
Given there are conversations around contrast then clarity, contraction then expansion, breakdown then breakthrough…. seems like this is just part of being human.
Yesterday, I was driving, observing old subconscious thoughts/ patterns arise. It was fkn uncomfortable.
I kept thinking “Just hang in there, a breakthrough is coming.”
My connection with myself felt heavy, clunky, blergh – which was reflected in my connection with Cara. I saw myself in the world of attachment, blame, trying to get something from others, and separation – NOT coming from love.
I knew that shifting into self responsibility, higher purpose and being of service would transform it, yet it appeared that I had no access “in”.
I vented to friends yet the heaviness stayed. Until I surrendered. Last night through a conversation with a friend (who was also feeling heavy), I finally remembered to ask life for support.
And suddenly – relief. The moment I let go and handed it over to life, my whole being lightened. Instead of hiding and letting the ego win, I showed up for what life was asking of me.
OMFG the relief of putting the “small self” lovingly to the side.
Cara too, had been stuck in her sh*t all day, trying to “fix” things, to no avail. But after an inspiring event last night, she came home lit. Transformed. A different person from the morning – as was I.
As we snuggled and she shared, I felt the lifeforce that had returned to both of us.
Again, I was reminded: we can’t solve problems from the same inner state they were created in. When we transform our inner worlds, the problems dissolve.
When Cara and I are connected to a higher purpose – coming from love, being of service – there are no “problems” in our connection.
When we are both stuck in our sh*t it sucks, nothing “fixes” it.
Living with Cara, both of us deeply committed to transformation, service and self awareness; our shadows surface through our interactions. But when I remember that she is here to reveal my sh*t – showing me where I am not being love – I see the potency of our connection.
Every relationship, every situation—is here for us. To reveal where we’re stuck. To offer us the opportunity to break free.
We support each other, we walk each other home—but in the end, only we can free ourselves from ourselves.
Cara, I wonder if next time we can just say, “It’s sht between us, let’s just let it be sht until we shift our inner state, rather than trying to “fix” it.”
Can you relate to this? If so, what comes up for you, and what do you do to shift your inner state when you’re stuck?
Arika Yaeli 